My Thoughts

Luckily I didn't close down my bloggie, cos it'll still come to use whenever I need to rant my feeling.

It has been the 3rd week since Mum's operation.
As the eldest, I need to take care of a lots of things:
buying ingredients,cooking,sending sisters to tuition,ironing and all the other house cores.
And I also arranged my sisters to do some minor housework.

I'm trying hard to do things well.
I'm trying very hard to GROW UP.
But can't u just praise me for what I've done?
All u can see is the mistakes that I did.
Or how lazy I am.
U always mentioned the negative sides only.

I wanted to show u some concern and caring.
But did u give me the chance to do so?
Sometimes I don't even dare to approach you because I'm afraid that u turned me down.
But if I don't do anything, then u will keep nagging about how bad I am.
This is so contradicting!
I don't how should I react to make u happy.
U said u're hurt and u feel so bored to stay at home.
What should I do?

I think I'm not good at being concern.
I'm not good in expressing my feelings.
But I just hope that u know that the whole family are there for you.
Sometimes loves and concerns do not need to say out loud.
It just comes from the hearts.
I don't like it when the parents quarrel.

Now even Daddy's sick, just hope he'll recover soon.
Hope everything will be fine.
I want a HAPPY FAMILY.